Miraculous Provisions!

Has there ever been a time in your life when you were in desperate need for God's provision and even though you KNOW He ALWAYS provides EXACTLY what we need, you still doubt He is going to come through with this one situation? DON'T DO IT! Because when the time comes and He COMPLETELY provides for you, you WILL feel guilty for not trusting Him because all a long you KNEW He would be faithful in the end and it's a slap in your face that you needed. One thing I learned this week that changed my thought process a LOT was the fact that God wants to know what it is YOU want to do. It is great to go before God ans ask Him where He wants you to go, but sometimes when you ask Him that, He is asking YOU where YOU want to go. When I got this revelation this week, ya know what I did? I SAID OUT LOUD TO GOD: "I honestly don't think You are going to give me money for Malaysia and I don't think you want me there for whatever reason because if You did, I would have that money. BUT God, I WANT TO GO TO MALAYSIA!" Even just looking back on this and remembering the doubt I physically said out loud to God makes me so ashamed and disgusted with myself. I was being an inconsiderate selfish slob! And regardless of that fact, ya know what God did? Yeah. God gave me $5000 dollars in one. stinking. day. $5000!!!!!!!! And all I can do is repent and ask for forgiveness for my horrible selfishness and disbelief AND constantly praise and worship our PREFECT and AMAZING and Providing and FAITHFUL glorious GOD! NOW! I am excited because I am going to give you the full and detailed story! If you don't want to hear it, stop reading now because I actually have a few miracles to tell you all about! God is SO good! So on Wednesday of this week in our outreach meeting, my leader Paige told us all we needed to have all our money in before January 15th. One week away. And I had $0 to even finish paying for tuition. I owed over $2000 for tuition and over $2000 for outreach. I almost broke down crying but I knew I just needed to stay calm because God would do what He needed. It got harder to keep that mindset as the week went on however. But I really did keep trying. Then everyday after that, my team would individually come up to me randomly, lay hands on me, and pray for God's provision in this area. I am so thankful for my surrounding of believers. Anyway, on Thursday night we had an extra class of lectures in order to prepare us for the following day which was called "ministry day". And so we walked through the process of what the whole following day would be. But even with the preparation we had NO idea the things God was going to do. One of the things our speaker, Mark Parker, told us would be happening was a time of blessing. And during this time we would be exchanging gifts to each other. Our job was to then take that night to talk to God and figure out what was supposed to be given and to whom. Well almost immediately I knew that I was meant to give a gift to my friend, Jenni. But I had NO idea what it was I was supposed to give her. So I prayed about it and got nothin. And more of nothin. So it was a little frustrating but then I decided not to freak out about it because even if I just give a gift, it has the power to bless someone. So! With that, the next morning I decided to give one of my dresses away to my friends, Margarita. So then after our VERY powerful introduction to our day the next morning, and after we spent a long time giving thanks, worshiping, and praising God, it was time for blessing one another. So everyone got in one giant circle around the room and one by one people started giving gifts and blessing one another. And it was the most beautiful and prophetic thing I have ever witnessed! It was crazy because you would constantly watch one person give something SUPER important to them away, and immediately the situation would turn around and they would receive that same blessing BACK from someone else! People gave away their brand new iPads and iPhones and computers. People gave away long boards, and clothing and art work! People gave away iPods and EXPENSIVE cameras! People were just GIVING! And when we all got into the circle I immediately knew exactly what it was I was supposed to give to my friend Jenni. God told me so clearly to give her my purity ring. I know some people may not understand but that ring is very significant to me and I have not even taken it off my body for 8 years. It holds beauty in part of my identity that I love the world to know. I love showing physically the promises I have between God and I and so it was actually rather difficult for me to agree with God about giving it away. But considering the fact that C.J. gave me a promise ring before I came to Australia and I traded my purity ring over to the other hand at that time, I realized that it would honestly just be an even bigger blessing to be able to share that beautiful promise with someone else. And once I actually took the ring off, I felt a bit of freedom because it was also a growing up sensation for me too. SO! After watching tons of people give I finally gave away the dress and then I went up to Jenni and told her God wanted her to have my purity ring as a symbol of her love for and promises to God. And she literally fell to the ground and started sobbing harder than I have ever seen anyone cry before. I did not understand the impact the ring would have on her and I still didn't even after this. So i got down on my knees and held her in my arms and just hugged her for a while. Then I got up and went back to my place in the circle. THEN while in the circle 3 people in a row turned and handed me a piece of paper telling me specific amounts of money they were giving me for outreach!!! Then! 3 OTHER people randomly throughout the time of blessing did the same! By the end of the time of blessing I had over $2000! I was just weeping and I could not believe the things that were happening! God was truly performing miracles ALL around the room. THEN! After we had a few more hours of the ministry day, my friend Jenni pulled me aside and said she needed to talk to me about something. So I went with her and she began tell me an AMAZING story. Apparently about one week ago while we were in Airlie Beach, she had been talking with God and she had been asking for forgiveness for her past and she had been making promises to God to love Him and only Him for ever and she promised one full year of being single just so she could spend that time with God. Then she continued on to tell me how God's response to all of this was the He loved her, forgave her, and He told her He was going to give her a purity ring that He wanted her to wear always. So after getting that response she wrote down hers and God's conversation, she DREW the ring and she dated it at the top so she would know exactly when the promises were made. SO then that next week in her small group she had apparently told everyone her story. So all of her small group knew about it too so when I gave her my old purity ring yesterday, they were ALL freaking out and I had no idea why! But THAT is why she broke down! God really DID give her the ring He promised her!!! I was literally speechless. I have never witnessed anything like it! Let alone get the blessing of being a part of it! So my entire day was already insane! THEN to top it ALL off, later on my friend Lisanne pulled me aside and asked about all the money I had been given and in the end she looked me directly in the eyes and said, "once you have been physically given all the money everyone has promised you, tell me the final amount of what else you need and it is yours. Your outreach is paid for. All of it." DEFINITELY MY TURN TO BREAK DOWN! I could NOT believe what I was hearing!!!! DON'T EVER DOUBT GOD! Please!!! He is worthy of SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much MORE!!!!!!!!! And in one day just like that, $5000!!!! ALL OF MY OUTREACH IS NOW PAID FOR! BEFORE THE DUE DATE!!! I am light headed just thinking about it! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!! So, I am SO excited to announce that I officially WILL be going to Malaysia AND NO one has a right to say God does not provide or is not Faithful. God has done so much and He is so miraculous. My life since being here has completely changed (for the better) and it continues to do so the more I learn about God and love Him and spend time with Him. He is so amazing. And SO worthy! Goodness. 2014 is going to be an AMAZING year everyone! I hope you allow yours to be worth wile as well! Thank you to EVERYONE who has supported me and who prays for me! I ask that you continue to do that and please share these stories and miracles with everyone around you so people can know God's unlimited power and love. All glory to God! He is SOOO WORTHY! I love you all so much and I am SO excited to share all this with you! HAVE A BLESSED WEEK! -With love from Australia, Christianna!!!